Thursday
this is to you..
saw you today while i was on the way back home.. was walkin from the gym to the atrium.. and i saw you with ya fren.. your fren spotted me and you wave to me.. saw that you were shocked.. and ya.. i did wave back.. but din go forward to talk to you..
seeing so many of my frenz and people around me.. getting together.. all so loving and caring for one another.. and i remembered the times that we use to spend.. goin out.. playin pool.. thats was how i got to knw you.. hanging out for movies or just sitting down and chilling..
thoughts of you ran thru my mind so very frequently wherever i see couples together or your friends.. *sighz*
you were wearin that sweater of mine.. still clearly remember.. it was a thursday.. you were having you IS and it was raining.. you sms me and asked me to bring my sweater for you.. was in lesson and ya.. came out of lesson to pass it to you..
every thing abt you is still so clearly in my mind.. trying to put it aside.. but its so hard.. the feelings just wun go away..
now i am feeling the pain when you told me to give up and you have given up all feelings and hope.. since then.. i have been wondering/asking.. will you still ever give me a chance?. why am i doin this?. cuz the feelings is so deep.. and i wanna care for you.. be there..
i have been failing.. climbing up.. and failing back again.. still tryin so hard.. putting a mask infront of the face that i have.. wearing a different face when i am at school..
still trying to care for you..
missing you so so much..
Placed By Jonathan
8/26/2004 08:20:00 PM
*argh* *argh* *argh*
IMMF.. why why.. the things i studied din come out.. and the things i din studied came out.. *grumbles* totally lyk *har* when i got the paper.. i could manage to finish the MCQ as it was doable.. but the section B.. oh man..
*cursed*
it was lyk i onli knw half?. and i kinda try to fill up wad i can.. and guess lots of marks are gone with the wind.. and yes.. today's paper was the worst.. guess i din prepare enough.. now hopefully i can pass this paper.. and i still got a IMMF proposal to finish.. and ya.. its 10% of the total.. so very very important.. need to do this to pass..
*praying that everything will be fine*
after the paper.. kinda went to school gym with han xiong.. dan.. randy.. and pok.. haha,. spend abt 3 hrs there?. quite good to go to the gym.. pump iron.. haha,. now totally motivated once again.. to the gym.. *hopes dad goes along*
saw wei cai and roy.. when i was in the gym.. haha,. how could they suan me.. *sighz* its alrite.. its alrite.. though i mayb skinny.. but you all cant see the skills within.. haha,. common tests are all over.. so now its normal lessons.. but i dun have school tomolo.. so its chilling out..
*YEAH*
sleepy.. sleepy.. man.. this reminds me.. i need to pay my handphone bill.. *sighz* payin bills.. i got to be damn rich one day.. and money wun be any problem to me at all.. *hmm*
to the shower..
Placed By Jonathan
8/26/2004 03:45:00 PM
Wednesday
yeah yeah yeah!! 1 more paper to go.. and thats IMMF.. but damn man.. no past year common test paper to do.. *shit* wad if the paper is damn tough?. lyk today's CSA.. *kaoz* i wanna complain..
the questions are so difficult.. *hmm* lots of tinking needed.. and yes.. again.. there were careless mistakes.. damn eyes.. why cant i just stay focus and do the paper?. mayb cuz i finished it off and was not bothered to check..
*ARGH*
but at least i could the most paper of the paper.. and lots of my frenz given up?. lyk for some of the questions.. *hoping* all is done.. grades will be out in 2 weeks time.. haha,. wonder how will i fair.. wad if.. wad if..
*neh* dun scare myself.. everything will be cool.. ya..
today adeline said something which made me laugh.. she asked me not to sit infront of her in the future.. haha,. cuz i always finish early and leave after an hour.. she complains that i give her stress.. haha,. how funny is that rite?. haha,.
later will go thru IMMF and i got to reach school by 8am.. thats totally way way early!! have to ask dad to fetch me to school already.. haha,. otherwise i totally will be so late..
i can smell it now.. freedom.. no more tests.. yes yes yes.. but more to come in the future.. *sighz* haha,. alrite.. nice weather means..
time for
NAP!!
Placed By Jonathan
8/25/2004 05:51:00 PM
Tuesday
back from PSP tests.. the paper was fairly doable?. but.. but.. *ARGH* how careless can i be?. haha,. had alot of careless mistakes.. and am totally not sure of how the end results/grades be.. cant afford to fail and modules..
guess i have to read the questions properly and dun rush.. cuz i have enough time to finish the paper.. its just the things around.. distraction here and there.. stay focus..
jon.. stay focus..
2 more paper to go.. CSA.. and IMMF.. have to memorize on the theory part.. abt the hardware of the computer parts and systems.. the difference of this and that.. blah blah blah.. and changin of the binary codes.. and how to add them up.. chngin frm binary to dec.. dec to hex.. wahaha.. i tink i am goin crazy..
so many things to learn.. and so fast.. i am havin so many tests..
found my mistakes already..
1. in exam hall - keep looking around..
2. finish early dun check..
therefore resulting in carelessness.. i tink i have too much of a confidence.. got to calm down and be sharp and careful while doin the papers.. too playful.. jon.. you are too playful..
back to concentration.. CSAing..
Placed By Jonathan
8/24/2004 02:40:00 PM
Monday
had my first common test paper today.. FS which is sort of like maths.. and to my astonishment.. the paper is lyk how damn easy la.. and i just could not believe it.. haha,. but the thing is.. i tink i have a lot of careless mistakes that will cost me of my marks.. *sighz*
and another thing.. that i am so pissed abt.. is that i have to take my exams in the sports hall.. and its totally so humid in there!! *grr*
need some place cool or with air-con.. so i can tink properly and not worry of wiping my perspiration off now and then.. at least am having tomolo's paper.. PSP at the exam hall.. so hopefully.. its air-con..
goin to take my short nap later on and its back to studies.. mugging.. mugging.. mugging.. haha,. and i got 3 more days to go.. and i am tests/exams free!!
okay okay.. dun be happy so quickly.. everythings just starting.. haha,. makes me feel lyk i am in sec school.. lyk after O's and everyone is talkin abt the questions.. whats done is done.. nothing can be done.. so chill out guys.. haha,. do betta for the other papers..
enough said.. need some rest.. been wakin up so many times last nite.. now very very sleepy..
Placed By Jonathan
8/23/2004 02:52:00 PM
