i aint here anymore.

Thursday

boreds.. nothing to do.. dunno wad to type..
blank.. everythings changed.. dead..

Placed By Jonathan
7/21/2005 08:16:00 PM

Sunday

life is short.. real short.. for the past week.. i have seen abt 6 funerals.. yah..
6 in a week.. and yesterday lil star told me abt this guy.. who killed himself in the states..
and before he died.. he wrote a letter.. wishing that a song would be played..
during his funeral.. it was by 3 doors down - if i could be like that..

he left his girlfriend, who was carrying their child.. and he just went..
killed himself just like that.. due to the stress around him..
and.. recently.. there was this kid.. a 16year old kid.. killed himself..
cuz his girlfriend broke up with him.. and i was like.. what?.

its like.. whatever the girlfriend wants.. the boy brought it for her?.
having the boy,. pester his mother for money.. to buy the gifts..
like i heard,. a dog.. a laptop and all?. *hmm*
and the other thing is that the girl have another boyfriend..

everything around us is so so fragile.. dun you tink so?.
mayb just a minor incident that affect you so greatly.. and snapped..
there you go.. you totally give up and all things around you..
wishing to end it all.. have you ever faced such a problem before?.
for me.. totally man.. all the stress mounting on you..
not being able to hold on further.. there you snap..
you are hanging between the balance.. to go or to stay..

why do one have to go thru so much?.
so one could grow,. could mature and understand?.
with so much sufferings to endure.. would one really..
really be able to hang on till the end?.
honestly.. i have seen.. my friends.. people around me..
fall.. change.. to someone else.. due to such incidents around them..
and i am one.. who have too.. been like them.. changed..
in so many different ways..

as some would say.. this are the things that mould you to become a person..
i call it bullshit.. if becoming a person is so painful..
so emotional.. so demanding.. i might as well.. not become a person..
or exist at all..

the thoughts just come and go..

Placed By Jonathan
7/17/2005 03:52:00 PM