i aint here anymore.

Thursday

there isnt any better time to say this all out.. hmm..
at times.. when you needed me.. i wasnt there.. and now..
i got this feeling.. when i need you.. it feels like you are not there..
i just want to get hold of you.. and not let go..
somehow.. i am treasuring you more than usual..

these are words that i dare not say it out to you..
but its better for you to see it?. there is something i want to tell you..
i aint letting go no matter what.. and for you..
back to the past i will go.. for you..

things that have been done.. things that hurt..
will now all go away.. as a new chapter will begin..
so walk this new chapter with me.. again?.

Placed By Jonathan
1/05/2006 11:19:00 PM

Monday

sitting by the window side.. from the view that you see..
the afternoon sky turns into a dark cloudy view..
such moment feels like your life.. it was all bright..
but now.. it seems so dark and you aint able to find your way around..

thoughts go through your mind.. things just floods through..
what if this happens.. what if that happens..
your heart feels heavy.. your breath feels heavy/deep..
you try to think straight but you just cant..

a home dont feel like home.. you have lost your sense of belonging..
you grow up to fight the world.. you fight for the rights of your own world..
the rights of your belief.. would people around you care about how you feel?.
no they dont.. they dont at all.. you are just a figure..
just like everyone.. who come and go so frequently..

who are you.. or who you really are..
have i lost it all..
or just losing it..

Placed By Jonathan
1/02/2006 01:59:00 PM