i aint here anymore.

Wednesday

i slept and woke up with the same dream.. or same scene..
hmm.. picture this alrite.. probably 5plus - 6plus..
at the beach.. sitting down.. with a milkshake or ben and jerry's ice cream..
looking at the horizon of the sea.. the sun setting..

there we were seated.. you lying on my shoulder..
both of us enjoying the treats that we have..
salt and vinegar.. ice cream.. soft drinks/drinks..
mayb even chilled beer would be nice..

sitting on the picnic map.. the breeze blowing against us..
just calm and peace.. and enjoying the surrounding..
only would do such things with you girl..
yah.. i slept and woke up with this dream..
a sweet dream.. the smile thats on your face..

Placed By Jonathan
4/26/2006 08:18:00 PM

Monday

my gum is swollen once again.. but yah.. cant depend on the painkillers..
so stopped eating them.. and pray that i recover soon..
cant stand my diet.. limit food that i can really eat.. damns..

been sitting down at home.. staring in space and tinking..
realise somethings will really never change.. and they will never..
missing her badly.. wonder how is she.. wonder if she is well..
worried as she is starting school and that i just want to spend time with her..
and dont want to make her angry in anyway..

yah.. waiting and learning how to chill is what i got to do and am doing..
my pronunciation aint that good right now.. due to the holes in the mouth..
cant move my mouth to fast otherwise the wound will hurt..
and yah.. pretty much just missing her..

never stop loving her.. and i will always love her..
faith.. trust.. hope.. love.. all in God's name..

Placed By Jonathan
4/24/2006 10:19:00 AM