i aint here anymore.

Friday

i am sorry that i aint strong enough.. tears just flow..
i keep tinking about you.. i miss you so much..
every little thing reminds me of you..
the days we spend.. the days when i listen to you..
share your problems.. i.. i..

i just need you so.. wasted.. totally wasted i am..
emotions get me.. they just do.. i cant go on..
i cant imagine a life without you..
everything that we have done.. the joys..
the tears.. i want to be there for you..
i really really do..

i will always love you girl..
i love you and you only..
my baby girl..
my crystal..

Placed By Jonathan
5/26/2006 11:25:00 AM

daze.. the sky looks darker den usual.. everything around so slow..
so quiet.. my head filled up with the beat of my heart..
the days i spent you are always in my head..
i just feel pain each time.. cuz i fear.. i worry..
after what has happened.. very thing is uncertain..
you too am unsure of things.. i just wish..
i could have you around again.. i want to be there for you..
to share the burden of your problems.. to listen to you..
but right now.. i cant do any of that.. you are angry with me..
and probably wun even want to see me or hear from me..
you take care my love.. you are always my love..

dear god.. you watch over crystal as she spend her days..
either in school.. work or even when she is out..
cover her with your protection and lord.. you..
let her know.. people are always there for me..
i am always there for her.. let her rest well..
and give her strength to spend her days ahead of her..

take care girl.. my baby girl..

Placed By Jonathan
5/26/2006 01:27:00 AM

Wednesday

it totally have started.. the phrase is "cold war"..
even my dad talked to me this morning..
he said.. why.. cold war with your mum arh..
and i jus nodded away..

aint me alone.. she got to know herself..
she keep doing such stuff and i just cant stand it..
but yah.. just gonna let it be..

just needing you here but you want to be alone..
all i ask is you take care of yourself..
will be here for you..

Placed By Jonathan
5/24/2006 09:29:00 AM

Monday

it has started all over again.. war.. cold war..
silence in the house.. thats what will be happening..

1. you dont need to be unreasonable..
2. you shuld give me the respect of my life..
3. dont intrude into my life and comment abt it..
4. you care the wrong way and it makes me pissed..
5. i practically dislike your actions..

remember.. you always say the wrong things..
comment without tinking and you..
just offend people.. your kids..

cant wait for the chance to leave..
to be alone.. away..

Placed By Jonathan
5/22/2006 12:09:00 AM