i aint here anymore.

Thursday

the night grew dark, the stars never came out.
the surrounding became cold and quite.
the music played and filled the room.
each word became so clear.
every thought, every look at the past so clear.
as clear as the reflection of your face in my mind.
when could i gather it all and put it behind.
when could i say its really alright and walk on with a smile.
no more down cast face. no more tears. no more pain.

i just want to break free from such pain.
such lies of being alright but at times i look through our things.
every little thing brought me back. every little thought killed me.
how i wish i could run and never head back. just go forward.
but there is this force that keeps pulling me back.
why? even that little bit of hope change so many things.
i dont know what to do. i really dont. i am leading a lie.
i am. trying to tire myself. so i can forget. can let go.
but till now, i still, i still cant. i miss your presence.
i miss hugging you. i miss holding you hand.
i miss having you near. i miss you smiling. i miss your voice.
so many things yet all is so far.

if only there could be 1 chance to change everything.
i would want to love you more. i would want to.
remove all the mistakes. and never let you down.
never drift away. and make everything possible.
everything go right. why did God do this to us.
bring us together and let us go. and so far away from eachother.
its as good as, losing half of my heart.

this song kinda made everything come out.
all the words that was placed. being so unsettled is.
never good. but well, my dear girl. if you ever pondered over this.
i want to say. i do miss you still. i do love you still. and take care.
and goodbye. i will be always there when you need me. i.
i say goodbye once again. cause i can never have you near again.
i do wish for that to happen. i do wish. take care girl.

Hands in heaven.

As I watch you move, across the moonlit room
There's so much tenderness in your loving
Tomorrow I must leave, the dawn knows no reprieve
God give me strength when I am leaving...

So raise your hands to heaven and pray
That we'll be back together someday

Tonight, I need your sweet caress
Hold me in the darkness
Tonight, you calm my restlessness
You relieve my sadness

As we move to embrace, tears run down your face
I whisper words of love, so softly
I can't believe this pain, it's driving me insane
Without your touch, life will be lonely

So raise your hands to heaven and pray
That we'll be back together someday

Tonight, I need your sweet caress
Hold me in the darkness
Tonight, you calm my restlessness
You relieve my sadness

Morning has come, another day
I must pack my bags and say goodbye...
Goodbye...

Placed By Jonathan
11/30/2006 01:09:00 AM